ok today my post is about my driving today and easter comng up.
i drove for the first time today. it was hard because i had to use hand controls and they are very hard to learn. u have to be really coordinated.the man that was giving my evaluation was nice and he had to correct me on a bunch of things but e never yelled or gave up on me.
it was also fun and he said i had enough knowledge that i could start my driver training to get my license. it was scary at first when he took me out on the road after being in the parking lot but i got the hang of it and loosened up a bit and wasnt so nervous.
ok enough about me driving.
so the big day is coming up.EASTER.im so excited. i love easter. its my fave holiday. last year around easter wasnt very good because that was a week after my uncle had committed suicide. that was a horrible night.
the day startedout normal. everything was going good. then about 9 or 10 at night my mom got a call saying that my uncle had killed himself and she had to go down there. it didnt hit me right away it took a min before i processed what she had just said to me. then the tears started to flow.she wanted to stay with me but she had to go help my dad and rest of the family at myaunts house. i knew she couldnt stay and i wasnt mad i was just overwhelmed wth emotion at that point.then came the next day. i was told i didnt have to go to school but i had a test that i didnt want to miss and i wanted to try and make it through.
bad idea. the wole next day was kind of a blurr as far as what was taught in my classes all i can remember was the rumors that were flowing from the kids at school. tey had heard about it and started saying things that were completely not true an some of them were down right mean.
ik my true friends were going to be there for me and they woul stop any rumors they heard. like my friend steph and cassi. they knew what had happened and stopped anyone from saying anything bad about my family or what had happened.
ik some things about how and where he did what he did that im not going to share because i am not ready to put it down fo everyone to see but if u want to know just ask and i will probly tell u.
it is still hard around birthdays and holidays for our family. my cousins birthday was sunday and im sure it was heard to know his dad wasnt going to be there for his 16th bday.
sme good things we can focus on this yar is the family we have left and the memories we have of my uncle dean. he was fun man and usually quiet but always happy and loved his kids and family.
so this is why im dedicating this blog to him in his memory tonight.
<3 you uncle dean-dont lose any socks up there
R.I.P.
<3 kaylee

ARMS OF AN ANGEL-SARAH McLAUGHLIN
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel “not good enough��?
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an Angel, far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here