god only knows....

i was inspired to write this blog when i heard this song.......

GOD ONLY KNOWS

I feel so alone, Cant seem to find my out of this lone?
No, it dont seem right
I didnt have a chance to say goodbye.

In this this silent space, I close my eyes i can hear you say
That it's alright, but my world's such an empty place tonight.
Cause i know that, its all part of life.

[Chorus]
I wish i had the chance to say goodbye, yeah i still miss you.
so hard to see through the tears i've cried.
Yeah, i still need you.
Cause i dont want to, if i dont have to ever let you go.
The longest i'll hold on.. God only knows.

As the time goes by, it gets a little easier to smile.
I know i'll never forget everything that you said.
You said its alright, it's all part of life.

[Chorus]
I wish i had the chance to say goodbye, yeah i still miss you.
so hard to see through the tears i've cried.
Yeah, I still need you.
Cause i don't want to, if i don't have to ever let you go.
The longest i'll hold on.. God only knows.

{ The hard times} will never fade if you keep looking up
Right around there is a better place if you believe in love.
Cause i know that, its all part of life.

[Chorus]
I wish i had the chance to say goodbye, yeah i still miss you.
so hard to see through the tears i've cried.
Yeah, I still need you.
Cause i don't want to, if i don't have to ever let you go.
The longest i'll hold on, the longest i'll hold on.
The longest i'll hold on.. God only knows.
God only knows.
Ya, God only knows.
God only knows.

I got to thinking after listening to this song how i have been to way too many funerals lately. 7 so far and one on the way in a year and a half. that is 8 too many. two of them were not needed. they were suicides. i feel for everyone that has lost someone this way. it is an indescribable pain for the people left behind. we cant imagine how much pain that the person was in emotionally or physically. obviously they felt they couldnt get through whatever it was.

with this said this is especially hard because u have no warning therefor no goodbye.

it really sucks when u cant say goodbye to someone u cared about before they have passed away. no matter how they died when u cant say goodbye it is much harder to get past the greif.

this song touched me in so many ways. its lyrics say so much that so many people feel and cant put into words. listening to this song i feel can be theraputic to someone who has lost someone.

i hope this song touches many people the way it has touched me. thanks to lucks for sending me that song. i think its becoming one of my favorites at this time.
<3 kaylee

ugh need to clear my head

i have decided my head is going to explode this week. i have alot on my mind and im starting to stress out way too much over what some people may think are stupid things. maybe im just sensitive or something idk. but im getting upset over the littlest things lately. things that never used to bother me are things that now put me in tears. wtf?
today was no different. i talked to a few friends about what was going on and they were there for me but still i feel hurt. i honestly dont feel the person who hurt me did it intentionally or eveen knew he/ she did it. it just sucked. im not going to name names or put blame on anyone. im just writing this to get it out of my mind and felt this what the only way to do it. im just not having a very good day is all. well thats about it. ttyl
<3 kaylee

update cuz its been awhile

ok so to update all u guys on what ive been up to lately cuz i havent posted anything in a super long time.
-im back in college
-im going to be learning how to drive my van i hope soon
-im still living at home for the time being although i want that to change
-i cant seem to get a certain someone out of my mind no matter what i do
-im apparently good at putting holes in walls and running into things
-still good at falling out of my chair
-my chair needs fixing
-my computer is a piece of crap
-long weekends are boring still even when i have things to do cuz its a holiday weekend and dont want to do anything
-i still want red highlights and still considering getting a tattoo- dont know when thats gonna actually happen though- probly after i move out
-my pastors wife finally had her baby
-my sister doesnt live at home anymore
-i should really post more blogs than i do
............................... thats about it so incase u missed what ive been up to here ya go!
<3 kaylee


THEN- BRAD PAISLEY

I remember, trying not to stare the night that I first met you. You had me mesmerized.
And three weeks later in the front porch light, taking forty five minutes to kiss goodnight.
I hadn't told you yet, but I thought I loved you then.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world. And I just can't believe, the way I feel about you girl.
Like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been. We've come so far since that day.
And I thought I loved you then.

I remember, taking you back to right where I first met you. You were so surprised.
There people around but I didn't care. I got down on one knee right there.
And once again, I thought I loved you then.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world. And I just can't believe, the way I feel about you girl.
Like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been. We've come so far since that day.
And I thought I loved you then.

I can just see you, with a baby on the way. I can just see you, when your hair is turning grey.
What I can't see is how I'm ever going to love you more. But I've said that before.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world. And I just can't believe the way I feel about you girl.
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in and I'll look at you and say, "And I thought I loved you then."
And I thought I loved you then.

another random quote blog post

another random quote blog cuz im bored and felt like blogging again lol

1.Nothing is impossible. Some things are just less likely than others.
Jonathan Winters

2.Girls are like phones. We love to be held, talked too but if you press the wrong button you'll be disconnected!
Annonymous

3.I told the doctor I broke my leg in two places. He told me to quit going to those places. - Henny Youngman

RIP Kelly

tonight has been a really rough night. i was washing dishes and my dad calls everyone to the living room. already i knew this was not going to be a good thing or any fun. my dog has been really sick lately and she isnt going to get any better and shes real old and has huge tumor. so friday morning my dad is going to the vets and we have to put her down. this is especially sad because we have grown very attached to this dog. we have had her for 10 years now. she is twelve yrs old and its just her time. i will not be going because when we had our first dog put down it was hard for me to be in the room and this dog is much harder to watch in pain. so this time i am sitting it out. i want to not have that as my last image of her. i thinks thats about all im gonna write tonight.
<3 kaylee

sissy's song- alan jackson

Why did she have to go
So young I just don't know why
Things happen half the time
Without reason without rhyme
Lovely, sweet young woman
Daughter, wife and mother
Makes no sense to me
I just have to believe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture in my mind
Will always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry 'cause

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me
Don`t worry 'bout me

new possibilities

so yesterday i was talking to an old friend about old times and the fact of me likeing him came up. he asked me if i still liked him and i asked him y. he said because i just might like u too a lil. im like well in that case yes i do and then he said that we should hang out soon cuz he wanted to see me. so im excited about this. i hope we work out cuz hes an amazing person. and i can actuall see him cuz he only lives about 15-20 mins from me.

LUCKY- JASON MRAZ AND COLBIE CAILLAT

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

single again

ok so to make a long story short me and josh broke up. he wats to bewith someone else so i ended it. we are still friends.it will take some time to get over him but i will be ok.